
Originally Posted by
kittikatgurl
I will only post on here once and you all can think of me as you choose.
There were two separate things co-occuring within the VoD group at the time. The OP was racially abused through voice chat (neither me nor the party lead caught the name or he would have never been in the reform). The abusive is something that the party lead (my mister) responded to in chat asking why anyone would talk like that, and that it was uncalled for. I myself did not respond, as I was concentrating on my healing role (as anyone who knows me will know) and in real life stresses (I live in Christchurch, New Zealand and was staying at my brothers with no water, my own house having no power nor water - although I know this is besides the point).
From the healing perspective, if we must go there, my alts are Cassiekat and Lainith and some of you on Sarlona will know that I take pride in my healing abilities, with almost all of my toons being healers in some way, shape, or form. In this particular raid we joined because a friend was leading it, and was surprised to find it being run with a rouge tank. That wasn't a problem, and I was looking forward to the challenge. The raid itself was going alright aside from badly timed curses on the tank (really could have used a toon spamming remove curse on him but that is a moot point at this juncture). I was asked to throw CLW mass due to the tanks healing amp, but chose not to, as when I did initially I noticed that the party was taking too much damage and dying. I could have used maximised and empowered CLW but that is a higher SP cost than mass heal so ineffective. So, I stuck to using mass heals, which kept the party alive but overhealed our tank to a ridecolus amount.
The OP needed to relog due to lag and I was able to keep the party alive with no issues during that time, although I was almost out of sp by the time she got back. Soon after I was getting frustrated as the OP was throwing CLW as requested by the tank, causing little dip in her sp bar, while I was having to search out my pots, having noted if I switched to CLW or stopped throwing mass heals the party began dying. I expressed frustration verbally to the party lead, as I tend to voice my frustrations to him while I heal (we are as most are aware, quite close), and he in turn expressed that to party. He is my love, and is defensive. Neither of us could see that the OP was doing much in the way of healing, and certainly if I stopped my mass heals the party began to die.
At this time someone responded to what the party leader said with a racist comment directed at the OP. I didn't respond in party at all, as I can't talk in party easily while healing full out, but I did respond to the party lead about it (we use non push-to-talk voice chat) and he responded for both of us to party with shock and distaste about the racist remarks.
The racism the OP received was entirely unjustified for the situation, and the healing problems were a result of simple miscommunication, which I admit my role in, as I was unable to directly voice why I was using mass healing. As a previous poster noted, the party that formed after did contain the racist player, but this was because neither me or the party leader was aware of the fact.
I take pride in my healing and to the OP directly I apologise for the miscommunication between us, and that I could not voice my choices in healing at the time. To the tank, I felt my choices in healing for the situation was justified and the party leader was defending my choice.
Please take these two events as separate as neither me nor Solo condone racism in any way shape or form.