To those I know, for better or for worse...

[Tat2Freak]

Hmm...sorry it was such an abrupt disappearing act (especially after having just come back). Just got a call from one of my Army brothers, making sure I wasn't dead or worse and I'm not. While I dont want to get into all the specifics of leaving, I feel I owe a few of you the whys.


1st: I stopped playing when I went on Christmas leave and after coming home on the 2nd or 3rd I found my house frozen solid...needless to say when the pipes unfroze mine and my adjacent neighbors townhouses flooded.

2nd: I finally let my other two sons move in with their mother, Hayden had been with her since school started.

3rd: The reality that my life in the Army (10 yrs) is quickly coming to an end do to medical issues and not having a clue what the future would hold.

4th: Having been on percocet and fentanyl for the last 2 years or so had left me in a zombie-like state and then the withdrawl process from stopping cold-turkey wasnt fun.

5th: Knowing that my soon to be ex will probally try to get everything she can, regardless of what I've done to help her.


LOL, now dont you dare feel pity, sorry or any of that for me...I was seriously depressed for a long time, thats why I quit (for now)...but thats not where I am...


Im happy to say that the house is almost back to normal and I am loking forward to moving closer to my kids.

That them moving in with mom has strengthened our bond as father and sons

That a Bachelor in Arts is part of the 4-5 year future

That while I will always be addicted to those narcotics I am no longer an addict

And finally that regardless of what she wants, she cant take my childrens love away


So, that being said...I want to thank all of you that at the least put up with me, those that showed true friendship, words cant express the gratitude I owe you for being there for me. I am sorry for abandoning you, but I had to....

I will be back...but thats another story...

Jason

[Quikster]

Sounds like things have been rough for you bud, hope things continue to look up in your life for ya.

[spyderwolf]

see ya when ya get back.

[twizznach]

OMG! Kehgeld! Panzy misses u and ur awsomesause craziness! <3 come back soon and gl with all ur stuff!

[Enochroot]

Good to hear from you Kehg - ain't many around that can flame a party like you could. (I try my best, but it just isn't the same)


Hope all is well - good to take time out for life.

[Calozz78]

Just remember Keg, The Army may screw you around time to time but they will help if you ask. Everything from counseling for addiction or depression. Just use the MilitaryOneSource. Look forward to playing with you again.

P.S if you need anything shoot me a PM

SSG Hosier

[Zenako]

Sorry to hear it Keg..

^%^&59 &*^&^ that's a bad string of fortune on your &^^%^% "backside"

I am sure a few &^% on the &^^&%^ server will (*^^ think of you in their (*^^% ((*(^&%^ prayers..

Good *(&^%^% Luck with life....


May the *^$*(# in your future give you a bit of break....


Godspeed...

[cdbd3rd]

...
I will be back...but thats another story...

Jason

Sounds like you're motivated, and on the way to getting things squared back up.
Also sounds like you got some solid folks in-game, plus those of us that just know ya on forums - push comes to shove - we'll still be around for whatever support we can give ya.

Another suggestion for ya if you end up on the civilian side - the VA works with Job Services (at least around here they do) and there are programs to help with things like college & retraining to new careers.

Good luck.


BTW, she also can't get your game stuff.

[Dexxaan]

Life happens to us all, & you've had it pretty rough...but one thing is for sure:

Life goes on and you've got the right attitude.

Keep it up and hope to see you back in game whenever you return.


PS: I can't wait to join another PUG LFM full of Noobers and then Kehgeld joins....

[dior10276]

Best wishes to you Kehg

Sodapopp, Dastardley, Gogetem, and so on!!

[moops]

Best wishes

[Towrn]

Turbine willing, we'll be here when you're ready. Far well til then Kehg.

[odontia]

Ben, Ursela/Pog, Bloodhaven and the rest of SSRI wish you the best. pOg.

[Caden_the_Dictator]

I love you kehgeld. Never met you in RL, never will most likely. But i've felt some of your pain before. So sincerely, Ben / Caden / Soyer (etc lol) hopes you find happiness wherever life takes you. Each week i will flame a noob a la kehgeld to keep your legacy going until you get back, because i respect what you are all about, in-game and out-of-game.

[Jiipster]

Depression's one hell of a drug, ain't it?

Don't know ya, never will, but still wish the best of luck to ya.

[SEMPER]

I hope things turn around for u and i wish u the best of luck and hope to see u in the future , Take Care

[Roman]

Jason,

If your ok with it, please pm me with your mailing address. There's something I'd like to send you.

[Dozen_Black_Roses]

Jason,

I only played with you a few times, and enjoyed our runs every time. It does indeed sound like you have alot on your plate right now, but it also seems you have a good sense of it, what is ahead of you, and what is most important. I will wish you well, and hope things go better than you hope. And when the day comes that you return to game, I look forward to another run.

~hugs~
Suz

P.S. For inspiration....

"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity." Albert Einstein

[Hurtzz]

I feel ur pain bro,I hope things turn out good for you,keep ur head up

Hurtzz

[Bacab]

Good luck man...I don't know you "in game" but being a fellow soldier (I'm ex-army) I understand. As someone posted...the military will help you with addictions and depression. Use those resources and look forward to seeing your children as much as you can.
My parents divorced when I was very young, but my dad made sure he saw me a lot and I still talk to him almost daily (I am 29 now)...even though I live in WA and he lives in SC (funny how the Army likes to displace you from family). You are absolutely right...your wife cannot take your children's love for you away.

Good Luck and I will pray for you (not sure if you are religious or not but every little bit helps right?)

~Bacab